ive been single for like 3 weeks and i already have such fucking boy problems. why do i have this effect on men? why do they have this effect on me?
We were discussing homosexuality because of an allusion to it in the book we were reading, and several boys made comments such as, “That’s disgusting.” We got into the debate and eventually a boy admitted that he was terrified/disgusted when he was once sharing a taxi and the other male passenger made a pass at him. The lightbulb went off. “Oh,” I said. “I get it. See, you are afraid, because for the first time in your life you have found yourself a victim of unwanted sexual advances by someone who has the physical ability to use force against you.” The boy nodded and shuddered visibly.“But,” I continued. “As a woman, you learn to live with that from the time you are fourteen, and it never stops. We live with that fear every day of our lives. Every man walking through the parking garage the same time you are is either just a harmless stranger or a potential rapist. Every time.” The girls in the room nodded, agreeing. The boys seemed genuinely shocked. “So think about that the next time you hit on a girl. Maybe, like you in the taxi, she doesn’t actually want you to.
I have a dream for you. I dreamt I was sitting on Clark Gable’s lap with his arms around me. He said, ‘They want me to do a Gone with the Wind sequel Maybe I will if you’ll be my Scarlett.’
I woke up crying. He was so nice to me and I didn’t deserve it. When I came back from a day off set, he patted my ass and told me if I didn’t behave myself he’d give me a good spanking. I looked him in the eye and said, ‘Don’t tempt me.’ He burst out laughing so hard he was tearing.
I wanted him to be my father. I wouldn’t care if he spanked me as long as he made up for it by hugging me and telling me I was daddy’s little girl and he loved me. Of course, that’s fantasy.
- Marilyn Monroe on Clark Gable in a session with her therapist Doctor Ralph Greenson